:: me ::

sometime i really hate myself for looking back.. thinking about the past... and i always remind myself i should not.. but realise that's just me, i cant stop being who i am and i cant stop looking back... knowing that, to a certain extend i do hurt myself more than others did to me. i know it may sound really silly and stupid but i really think so... and that doesn't mean i did not move on... i will face the fact that what things had happen to me. just that once things happen it can't not be ease. some how these 'bad fellows' always stay in a small corner in my heart and mind. maybe that's why we are called human and i am just being a bit more emotional then others. that's why my heart don't really open to others as i afraid to trust and getting hurt. even more of someone like me try to be perfect and yet -to - be. i kind of know why my relationship fails in some points... so pardon me to those who once help me out and those who tried... i will try to be open to my personal problems to people out there who cares for me but just give me some time to adapt. =) as i m who i am for 20 odd years... and i don't want to effect people just because i m unhappy. so i has always been a gd 'actor' to hide my true feelings in front of your eyes. i know it sound scary hahaha but seriously no harm, really i meant. hope no wrong ideals given out, just something to let does who reads my blog knows a tiny bits of me. =) as i rarely do that in my blog beside complains which is not counted haahah coz i do complains everyday.. =x kee





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not a sad post but i kind of found out who i m... and i bet everyone out there if you are finding answer about your heart. what i can say it... the answer is all in your heart and you know them. it is just the matter of decisions and risks you plan to take. spare sometime for yourself and think about it... it might not be a bad think to know who you truly are and may all you problem to solve and help a happy memorise to look back. ^-^ *bless to all who i love and who loved me*