:: 22yr of life ::

to me life nv been easy at all. there bound to be up and down. one after another. i had met all kind of problems , different type of people, nasty, taken for granted and betrayers etc. problems that people around me had en counted and my very own problems tend to make me really down and give up staying in Singapore. as there is nothing that holds me bad beside my family. having a family which had tons of problems inside the good cover which makes me even more hard to handle. when everyone falls i have to be the one to hold it no matter how hard it is. god make fate for us to become a family, so we should hold it not matter how bad how hard it is coz that is the only family we have. NV be regret when they are gone. every time when i m thinking why me i striving so hard, why do my family had all these problem, why cant i have a happy family like others do, why they dun believe me. etc.... i ask and ask, a girl like me, nv been recognise in the family tree, has been always having hard time to strive and prove to them. till now i did my best and proven certain things that people through i could nv do. but i did it. i always tell myself crying alone cant help much but it help to a certain extend to release the pain and stress. but i m not the type that will say my problems out nor show out. i hardly cry and always bury it deep inside my heart and it has become part of me till i dun know how to show out nor vent out and slowly become a habit that i might not be able to change the rest of my life.

but though out all this year there are lots of time i really felt so tired very tired that i ever wonder why i m doing all this crap making me to difficult and why m i having all this shit. even though of foolish things but keep thinking that way does help neither it this the solution to solve it. we have the rite to always break down coz if we dun break down it can really drive us crazy but always reflect upon our self after vented out everything. if we don't we will be the one who is going to regret everything not others. if you try and put in hard work, be forgive-able there will be a day that you can prove you are right. NV blame people but blame yourself to give them room to scold you. like that you will feel better and think positive and try to improve the nest time. though it is hard and tiring road but that is my life, my family, my fate. i have to face it not run away.
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